We now know that 24 hours without sleep, or a week of sleeping four or five hours a night induces an impairment equivalent to a blood alcohol level of .1 percent. We would never say, ‘This person is a great worker! He’s drunk all the time!’ yet we continue to celebrate people who sacrifice sleep for work.


by Phill Davison (2009)


Mayfield station in Manchester had become my Holy grail since i first visited here several weeks ago. The bricked up exterior had stopped us from having a good look inside this long forgotten place.

Defeated once, trip number two was arranged, new plans were put…



.the take a ch ch cha chance raffle.

My old Friend Tommy used to say to me “You got to give chance a chance Will”.
He always reckoned that Tumbling Dice was written about him, so maybe he was right. I tried to sell my records recently and it didn’t really work out as I had hoped.
i was trying to sell them fast for a thousand pounds and nobody went for it. Nobody had a spare thousand pounds to spend on records. I can understand that.
They are worth much more than a thousand pounds to me. I looked through them recently and I remembered a lot of things. Places , people, times and feelings. I still want to sell them and this is why.
I guess I have always been a bit wary of love. Some of you know that already I guess, maybe even better than i knew it myself. I have pushed people away , run from love and generally acted like a massive chicken whenever it came near for fear of losing it. This has sometimes been pretty damaging to myself and to the people who loved me over the years. I am sorry about that .
Recently, I realised that I loved somebody more than I knew. . I had pushed her away and doubted love itself until she had finally had enough and ran half way round the world to try and escape her feelings for me. I can understand that. Losing her made me realise some painful things about myself and the way I had been acting. I realised that I loved her and that I had driven her away and looked for love in all the wrong places when it had been there in front of me all along . Anyway, rather than running away physically, or into the bottle, or the bag as I have done in the past , this time i decided to have a long hard look at myself and what I was doing. It was a long , sober two months, and at the end , after all the anger and sorrow had passed with nobody to blame but me …I realise that I loved her . I have fought against love before , but I have never fought for another persons love before and it half scares me to death.

She is a long way away .

That is why I am selling the records that I collected and loved for all those years.
I have been given a chance that I fully intend to make the most of.

Everybody deserves a chance don’t they ?

So , getting to the point, I am short of cash and I am not letting that stop me.

i am going to raffle the records.
Some of you might not know what a raffle is.
Basically , you buy a ticket, the tickets all go in a hat,(mine), and then somebody draws out one ticket at random. The person with the winning ticket wins the prize, in this case , my record collection. So, everybody involved has a chance , just like me.
i like the idea of my records going to someone who has a chance. It seems fitting somehow.
If you don’t win the records , then maybe, just maybe, you will get to read the love story that I have been hoping to write my whole life. (Don’t worry, I still have plenty of the other stuff to get down as well .)

I think that when love wins we all win somehow.

Anyway , I am going to take a chance on that . Sometimes it is all you’ve got.

Tickets are ten pounds each , payable via paypal to williebcarruthers@gmail.com

limited to one hundred and thirty tickets . Pickup, of records to be arranged later by the winner.

ten runners up prizes to be also drawn from the hat .

The grand draw will be filmed next week and the lucky winner announced on camera